a day in my life.

dah agak lama gak x buka blog ni.

aku ni lupa daratan kot, bila susah jer aku cari blog ni.hahahaha

btw, berita baik hari ni, kelas Tax cancel.

berita buruk :

1. aku bosan tahap gaban.

2. kesihatan yg kurang baik

3. kehidupan yg bertmbh masalah

day by day, aku raser masalah aku makin +++++++++.

aku pn x faham kenapa, aku ni teruk sgt kot.

aku hilang kawan, aku hilang org yg aku sayang, aku hilang org aku percaya

n aku hmpr semua yg aku ada.

well, 2010 is such a year.

a year that will never be forget.

i should really go, but they seems not to allow that 2 happen.

well, i'm no more the old hanis.

i've changed, totally. in and out, i've changed.

i say what i want, i do what i wish and i will try to get what i want no matter what it takes.

the old hanis is humble, happy go lucky, caring and always watch her steps.

but, i'm no more like that. huhuhu.

no wonder problems keep chasing me.

i feel like i want to cry, but it juz dont happen.

its hard 4 me now to cry, & i totally have no idea y it happened.

mayb becoz this is Hanis. hurm......

i've an ambition that i cant tell my family, i juz cant let them know.

i really need to go if i want the ambition become reality.

but, can i really go??? step out from my old life??

change my life into a new???

do i have the strength???

i need the strength now n that y big girls dont cry.

i learn somethng throughout 5 months being alive in 2010.

i learn that never believe 100% in anyone or else, we'll dispnt.

i learn that not everything we want, we will get it, but everything that we didnt wish for, will come to us.

as a conclusion, never wish 4 smnthg coz that smthg will naturally come to us 1 day.

If i could die now, i really want to know what others think bout me..

i really wish that i was a mind reader. hahaha.

as for now, GOODNITE.

it's april

hai blog..

dah lm x melawat awak,hehe.

maaf yer blog, sya ketepikan awk selama ni. sy hanya cr awk bila sy ssh jer. maaf..

tapi, awk jer yg fahm saya,, sbb awk xleh coment saya. hehe. sy syg awk, blogg. syg sgt222.

terima kasih sbb jd tmpt saya luahkn perasaan. dah lbh kurang 2 bln sy tgglkan awk.

skrg sy tgh konfius, sy xtau apa yg betul, apa yg x.

sy dah x tau mana jalan sy, sy lost dlm dunia sy sendiri.

byk sgt benda jadi sepanjg tahun 2010 ni.

kdg2 sy terfikir mgkin sy dah byk buat dosa, so Tuhan nak uji saya.

kdg2 sy tfikir yg mgkin saya ni jahat sgt.. nthla blog, sy x tau apa mslh sy sekarang.

sy bukan lagi HANIS yg dulu, sy dah berubah. sy dah byk sgt berubah.

dulu saya sgt positif, tp skrg positive sy dah kurang

saya x tau nape.

saya nak dia, saya sayg dia, saya nk selalu jd yg terbaik..

niat sy bukan utuk bls dendam, cm sy nak tau samaada dia kan kejar sy@ x.

tapi, dia lepaskan.

ye, sy akui, sy jahat. dia blh benci sy, blh terasa ngan sy, tapi, tlgla faham, sy buat hya sbb sy terlalu sygkan dia.

sy mgkin hilang dia suatu hari nanti, so, sy nak jadi yg terbaik sblm sy hlg dia.

tapi, x taula. mgkin sy kena terus bersbr kot. sy nak perthankan apa yg sy ada.

sy sgt susah btl2 syg org, so, bila sy syg, sy akn jadi mcm org gila.

i can do anythng utk kebaikan org2 yg sy syg..

sy pn xtau apa sy nk tulis dah. x terkeluar semua.

biarlah sy simpn yg lebih tu.

TERIMA KASIH, blog.

saya syg dia n saya syg awk, blog..

6 feb 2010

today is saturday. everyone know, right?? hehehe
last night, i have quite a good time with my frenz....
we played togethr 4 d first time.
it makes me realize the meaning of frenz. they try to cheer me up when i was in hurt.
maisarah daud, sarah, izni and all 2A07...
thanx 4 evrything.
i might feel much better now...

i'll try my best to move forward. i'll move as far as i can.
so,please. Become my supporters, frenz..
u guys are my back bone now.hehehehe.

for the beetle, thanx 4 taking care of me..
i will support u from here,
till then, take care of urself..

i will strive for my mother's sake.
Umi, Hanis will make u proud ..i promise, so,please pray 4 me..

and to all my frenz.... please do support me. i love u all...

it is fact

reality that i have to face, 4 n 5 february 2010.
it was a very hard day for me.
very,very,very hard......

i pull myself to become more patient,
but, no matter how patient i am, things does happen.
perhaps, it is my fault,
seriously, my fault

my heart scream too loud when i make the decision. i wish it was just a dream...but,it is not.
u ask me to give u time, then that is what i gonna give u.
take as many time as u want, go as far as u want, but if u wish to come back to me
one day, then , come.
i'll wait for you.
But, if u don't choose me, i'll pray for your happiness.

please take care of yourself when i wasn't with u.
I REALLY MISS YOU...

the sky is getting grey

Tb2 jer aku dpt tau smthg mengejutkan. sangat mngejutkan.
upanya2, langit dah mendung.. sgt mendung sampai x termampu nak menahan lagi
akhirnya, hujan pun turn dengan lebatnya sampai basah baju aku
jgnkan baju, bantal pun basah..

aku dah xtau nak wat camner lagi.
i mean, can i go on without the blue sky??? korang paham ker????
sky, please be blue gain n please dont leave shah alam area.
stay where u are.. i need u here...

juzt leave the other part of the world, be with me 4 ever..pleaaseeee.
i can't stand without u...i can't move on....
so,please.. realize that i am the one that u really need.....

MOHD FIKRI BIN MUHD NOR.... u had become grey now. turn to blue right away.
i will wait for u. take as many time as u want, but do remember, come to me again when the time is due...

I LOVE YOU... & I NEED YOU.....

blog, thanx 4 being my diary....

PAPA.... MAMA PERLUKAN PAPA.

8.01 AM , 5 FEB 2010....

bahagia..

salam

welcome to 2010...

dah msk taun baru ni buat aku terpikir,
yang aku ni dah 20 tahun, so aku ptt lbh matured la kan.
huhuhu.
btw, boleh x nak wat wish sempena new year ni??

aku nak bahagia,, mcm org lain.
bkn aku x bahagia skrg, tp kalo blh nak lbh bahgia.
can aa????
manusia mmg x pnh ckp ngan apa yg ada, tp i just can't change it.hurrmmm..

right noe, im missing some1.
since aku dah nk balik esok, aku rasa cam sedih lak.
hopefully, aku dpt jumpa dia sblm pegi..
if i lose u, then, there is no replacement ever..
so, pleaseee ......
Pray to GOD,
that i want to be happy as others... Aminnn

dear, i miss uuu.
I.L.U.S.M.T.D.E.O.M.L.

it's time.

perhaps dah tiba masa utk aku brbh kot.
aku x rasa ada org yg fhm aku.
kalo ada pn, mgkin cket je. even my family pn x fhm aku.

so, biar aku bgtau ttg dr aku.
secara luar, aku nmpak garang, bengis, jahat n kasar
tp, aku sbnrnya garang pd waktu ttntu jer + aku sbnrnya soerg yg happy go lucky.
aku punya hati yg halus sbb 2 bl org kata or buat smthg kat aku, aku akn cpt terasa.
walaupn aku nmpk mcm xde ht prt, tp aku mdh simpati kat org. aku akn cb tlg org selagi aku mmpu.
aku akui aku sgtttttttttttttt manja, sgttttttttttt dahagkn ksh syg, tp salahke kalo aku cmtu??
perlu ke aku disalahkan sdgkan org lain yg bt mslh.

well, mayb nasib aku.
so, from now on, i'm gonna change my atttde.
aku xkan jd budak manja lagi, aku akn berdikari.
someone said this to me :
" cblah jd matured skt, umur pn dh pnjg, xyahla jd mnja "

that's y aku nk ubh perangai.
aku xkan gelak over, n buat paper scra over.
perhaps aku akn jd seorg yg selfish. maybee...
tp, ape yg pntg, aku xkan MANJA dah,

sorry kalo sikap mnjaku ini x disenangi oleh org lain..
maaf...

selamat hari raya eduladha.